.......love, lust and lyrics

sometimes I wanna give this shit up.. at the same time that force is driving me to go at it stronger and harder.. theres alot of heavy shit I've been going thru since I last posted on here.... today I realized that music is more than love, more than therapy, and more than just sound itself..... music is the reasomn Im alive to this day... music is the reason why I aint go stupid and bang myself in the head with a mag..... but music was the chick who I wifed up.. any other woman, who I claimed to be serious about, knew they were second.. music came first... I lost love and gained love, but music was that bottom bitch that held me down from day one.... my mind been on this other bitch, but I think shes more of a distraction than ever... from the sideways approach to the secrets I kept, a muthafuckin' distraction.. so Im cuttin off everybody and get back to me and my first love.... thats my bitch. lolz

so, this recent project I've been workin on is scrapped... I had to do it... just one of those songs that shouldnt be... the funny part is I shared the song with her but she had no idea of the girl I was talkin bout...... basically its some cliche 'I want you' type song... funny cause thats the name of the song.. maybe its me, or just the fact I've been forced to listen to all this wack shit out here, but I think the song is weak..... Im my own biggest critic and I must say, it's a dope song but not for me.. in a way I wish I never wrote the shit 'cause alot popped in my head....... oh fuckin well.. it's been written and recorded already and deleted as fast as I could

I told myself Im not gonna chase that bitch and I stuck to my words... however I got back into my old ways... Im not puttin names on blast but yall are the reason why Im sayin fuck everything and gettin back on my writing shit... yall are fuckin funny... makes madd shit to write about.........................fuck this Im about to write a verse.. I'll pick up where I left off later....... ya digg