.......some bullshit

I havent posted in a while... I havent made beats in a while.. why??? my computer is officially dead.. this shit is killing me because I have so many ideas building up.. ever since I switched to computer programs I've been hooked to that format... I want to go back to my old set up but I've grown so familiar to the way I bang out beats nowdays I can't help but go crazy.. this shit is serious now because ideaas are flowing like the nile and I cant lay shit down like I want to... some people say I should just go to the studio and lay shit down.... I know you are reading this and I say this to you: FUCK YOU IGNORANT ASSHOLES TELLING ME TO STOP COMPLAINING AND GO TO THE STUDIO. U KNOW IM UNEMPLOYED YET YOU TELL ME TO SPEND MONEY TO GO TO THE STUDIO JUST TO LAY DOWN BEATS.. ARE YOU PAYING FOR THIS SHIT.. HELL NO SO KEEP YOUR 2 CENTS IN YOUR POCKETS (I'm not being mean.. honestly.. we're still cool)

so far so good.. I'll be patient enough to wait it out till I get the home studio up and running.. to keep myself from going psycho I've been writing alot.. some that know me well know that I picked my mic up again.. that was my love before I got into beats.... I realized that things happen for the strangest reasons and it's always a must to go back to your roots... the other day I thought back to the moment when I had my first set up.. That shit was crazy because I came from an era where u had to improvise if you dont have it.. what do yall know about using a set of headphones as a mic.. huh.. yall protools and instant mc's or producers are scratchin ya heads right now like "WTF".. I had no way to track out shit.. just used my infinate black mind to take what I had and use the best of my abilities.. no MPC no sound modules no digital recorders.... just a 2 sampling keyboards, 2 tapedecks, a walkman, and a record player... thats right record player no turn tables.... a fuckin record player.. but used it to the best of my abilities... home made cords from radioshack saved my life.. even tho I didn't have multi track recording I was able to sync up all that I had to bang out beats..... some time after I fucked up the headphones I got kinda smart and stole a mic from the church my mom made me go to... god dammit I said it.. I stole a mic from church.... collection plate money as well.. fuck it... but the mics came in handy after I brought some mic chords.. without a mic stand I got creative and hung the mic from my ceiling using duct tape... shit worked like magic and I made my first few recordings... the quality sounded like shit but I was able to do what I had to... all that rambling on about the past lead me to this point.. I learned to appreciate what I have and learned to appreciate my mind for stepping beyond the limits and making it possible to express myself further.. I appreciate making music just to make music... it's the little things that bring me back to where I need to be... even tho I'm as hell that I cant record right now I can't complain... it's giving me a time to reflect and write more..... so I'm gonna stop typing on this sidekick and crack open this book of rhymes... no beats till I get a new computer... until then yall be good and check out the joints on my myspace page.. www.myspace.com/elementalsoundproductions .. let me know what u think....... ya digg

.......ressurrection of the MPC

ok... the second biggest lie I've told myself was ending the life of my MPC... despite the fucked up screen I decided to bring my MPC back to life... in my post called "the un-orthodox-producer" I went on to say that Im no longer using it since I've been recording via programs... thats the biggest bunch of bullshit ever... me getting rid of my MPC is like a vagabond throwing away a winning lottery ticket... so Im proud to say that my MPC is once more functioning in the Elemental Sound equipment pool... I plan on getting the screen fixed as well as the buttons... last night was some bullshit.. after I posted my last blog I found myself in the middle of sampling some keys until I went to load some keys I chopped back in 2000.. both the shift and f6 button are completely fucked...... oh well, back in the days we found ways to change channels with a pair of pliers (for those who were know about TV's without remote controls- damn right Im old school with it) instead of going crazy I decided to improvise and use a toothpick... creative huh?? anyways, just letting you know that the MPC is back in the midst................ fuck typing Im ready to get started chopping some shit like suey... ya digg

.....pain + music = the best shit I ever made

ok.. ok... I tried fighting with my self about a few things recently.. we all have moments of inner conflict that would lead to drastic changes.. at the moment Im numb to the bullshit that surrounds me in my life.. from time to time I find the urge to just pull the plug on all of this shit Im into, from the music, artwork to the various writings, podcasts, books etc... sometimes I feel too consumed in all that I do to the point that I feel like Im about to fall apart.. sometimes I think this shit aint healthy for me... you'll know what Im talking about if you read my insomniac post............... sleep pattern is still fucked up and it's taking its toll on me and the way Im thinking.. the only thing that kept me sane all along was my pad and pen.. if it wasnt for music I would have been the fucked up individual that I was many moons ago.. now I sit here in a dark room trying to type as the blunt ash fall on my white tee; trying not to think of pain.... bullshit.. those thoughts are outweighing every thought I can muster... aint that some bullshit.. I wake up in a fucked up mood and all I need is time to sort shit out.. sometimes I dont get that time, sometimes I do... PAIN!!! is it pain that I put myself through, I doubt it... for almost 20 years I've kept thoughts and feeling bottled up and I guess thats where the headaches come into play........ these headaches have gotten worse over the years to the point those same headaches turn to music.. as I've always said music is therapy, but now I come to realize that it's now a curse as well as a gift..... each emotion is like a chord, some on beat and some off key... where can I find harmony in the melodies of life? where can I turn when there's nowhere to go???? I wake up in the middle of the night either angry, depressed, afraid, excited or overjoyed... each feeling fucks with my head even the good.... so I break out my rhyme book and let the words flow... sometimes I feel rage when I write, trying not to explode, I continue writing... writing with hopes to ease this pain... that shit aint happening especially when all I am at war with myself and all I want to do is be at peace.... I dont cry anymore... each track on my beats are a tear drop of frustration, joy or pain fallen in order to clear my conscience... only then I realize my mistakes of the past.. so in order to write my wrongs I write a song..... I once told myslef I was going to stop spittin, that was the biggest lie I ever told myself.. as long at there's pain there will be music... when I combine them both I have the best shit I ever made...... until Im at it again....... ya digg

.......point of inspiration

in this day and time a weekend get away is more than a quick vacation.. Every now and then I get up and go no matter of what it is that I feel.... my brain is jumbled and thought become tangled by the minute... so I said fuck it.. no rhyme books, no beats, no ipod..... nothing but time to sort thoughts and ideas....... now when I get home I have a lot of samples to chop up.......ya digg

.......music is therapy

not too may songs these days touches ones soul like the music of the past.... is it the blame of song writers lacking soul or did the music itself lose its soul... listen to your average line-up and tell me what songs touches you.... don't get me wrong everyone has different tastes but when it comes to being force fed soulless music the only thing touched is the wrong chord.. In comparison to music of now creativity is the key to success.. today much of that creativity is used only to build an image, neglecting the real purpose.... good music.... support real music and help breathe soul in a lifeless form of music....... ya digg

.......oh no

one think that fuck with my head is mc's who wanna be mc's but they mc.. everybody can pick up a mic but in the end we realize it's not meant for everybody.... ok kids, it may seem cool to rap and do your thing but do some fuckin homework.... im going to call that type of rapper millenium kids and these millenium kids need to know where this thing called hip hop came from and where it's going.... still there are those who think they go it when they don't... this shit isn't for everybody so if you fit into the category take 10 steps back and wake the fuck up....... ya digg

.......stop spending and start saving

when it comes to recording software and sound files, who actually pays?? not me!!!
I'm not beat to pay prices for software, especially when I can get them for free.... welcome to the information age where everything can be found within a click of a mouse... digg this, certain companies offer free trial downloads or demo versions of their product... 5 out of 10 are suckers and purchase the full programs, spending hundreds to thousands of dollars in total... hell no not me!!! if you surf the net I suggest that you find a site dedicated to serial cracks and registration codes... the odds are you'll find a site containing malware, spyware and more trojans than your average playa, but on the flip side there's actually sites that's safe... I'm not listing them in the blog... can't give out too many secrets....lol
the next best place to find sounds and recording software are blogs, forums and message boards... suprisingly, you'll find hundreds of users who frequent hip-hop, general talk, & porn message boards posting rapidshare links to the newest versions of recording programs currently on the market... again, I'm not sharing links so I advise you to start Cyber Diggin.. here you can access so many sound files as well as recording programs...... so before you decide to drop cash on the latest protools package, read this blog... that money can be spent on the mBox and the rest goes to pocket....... ya digg